I just want to say that I never dreamed in a million years that I would Thank my parents after all the hardships of emotions they put me through. Through all the Projections and verbal bashings of one another that they put on me. I had years of therapy to try to figure them out, to figure out why they were so tough on me. Tough Love, my mother may have Always said. The truth is, my mother could not ever emotionally identify with me or for me. I was not allowed to be seen or heard. There was hardly anything my mother or anyone in my family ever really truly agreed with me on. I think a lot of people can identify as I have read in so many other Self-help and self-development books (which by the way through the years Only get better and better). So yes, my parents are my heroes, my angels and I’ll tell you why throughout one of the main Chapters about them. I have tried so hard to discover myself and it has been difficult to pick just one thing that I thought I wanted to do. I have tried so many different Job and Career positions and there were ones I absolutely realized I would not ever be able to stay in for the long term, to truly commit to those positions. Throughout my College experiences of going through Business Administration, I did not know what niche I wanted to pursue, especially in the very last years of attending my third Community College back in 2003. Then, I had still wanted to be a Small Business Entrepreneur. I had friends who had already picked what they wanted to do with their Careers. I have met so many Small Business owners and wanted to follow in their footsteps and yet didn’t reach the destination. I tried trade Schools as a Travel Agent and Massage therapist when College just wasn’t working out.  It has been interesting to say the least to try to get Creative, to try to pick just one or two things I knew I would eventually be good at and then just Go “all in” and give it my all, one very small step at a time. I am going to try all over again and it doesn’t ever make you a bad person for trying over and over again. It’s been about six years since I had any ideas at all, yet all new ideas started to flood me at the end of 2019. It’s phenomenal to get so many ideas; overwhelming, yet truly a Gift to have the ideas.

What is my Why or my Purpose to writing this book? Not just to share my experiences, my education, my knowledge of what it is like to be in relationships from family, to friends who come and go, to romantic partners and interests to even work related relationships. It is to help others realize that we may not ever stay the same. We are evolving. We are changing and nothing can change that. We have an idea or ideal of what our lives may look like and some of us may get to stay in that ‘Constant’ once we believe we have found our grounded Safe spot, yet we still will experience Shifts. Staying the same is boring. It’s like eating the same food for days, weeks, months or years and that is boring!!! There is nothing as Great as getting creative with our lives. When you are open, you are not afraid of learning. You are open to perspective, even if you do not always agree with it or even follow it. We develop into who we are meant to be. It can take years!!! I know cause I’m still changing. I am happy when I learn, grow, and change. It keeps Life interesting and fascinating!